My Monthly Wet Daydream

Joachim Bessing on nocturnal encounters and desire between friends

Text by Joachim Bessing
Illustration by Jonathan Kröll

From a ceiling fan’s viewpoint, the camera looks down on a couple lying on their sides, back to back, legs bent like hinges so that only their backsides are touching. It’s a short scene that’s so quickly over, that I can’t recognise if it’s two women or a woman and a man (they are wearing identical cherry-red G-strings). A sexual relationship seems to be possible, but not necessarily. The voiceover calls the sleeping position the butterfly.

“Friends who also want to stay friends, have to fear only one thing while sleeping almost naked: Starting to feel the desire.”

I assume these two are befriended sleepers who are lying in that so called butterfly position. Apparently during an afternoon nap or a summer night, lit up by the full moon, making the night bright like an afternoon. Friends who also want to stay friends, have to fear only one thing while sleeping almost naked: Starting to feel the desire, no matter if these people are two women or woman and man, making them, in a drowsy moment without any sense of rationality or presence of mind, into lustful partners, after that to lovers and finally to ex-friends.

“Next to me lies your body playin’ Like the map of some forbidden land” sings Nick Cave in ‘Slowly goes the night’, one of his most beautiful love songs which is – as well as many other love songs, like the classic song ‘Zwei Königskinder’ – about the wavering of the physical connection between two lovers. Because this is how the song goes on: “I trace the ghosts of your bones with my trembling hand.”

“Now, she is long gone. And all that is left now are the creases in the sheets, while he is all alone again. ”

Now, she is long gone. And all that is left now are the creases in the sheets, a vague touch, which turns into a wet daydream of a nocturnal encounter while he is all alone again. The butterfly is – as well as the egg shape formed by a sleeper in a foetal position – classified as a symbol of the soul.

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